Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Birthday Countdown!

I think this is the first time in my life that I am not looking forward to my birthday as I actually FORGOT that it's my birthday tmr! How can that happen??? Maybe sbb dh lama tk tgk calendar and lose track of time, I didn't realise that tmr is 23 Sept!

As I am writing this entry, it is exactly 1 hr to my birthday. Meaning, I have 1 hr left. Meaning...
Haiz... That is well-written ya?

To not disappoint my gentle readers, I shall continue the tradition of posting my birthday wish (a.k.a my birthday present list). Ini bukan apa, menyenangkan korang2 sumer utk mendapatkan hadiah yg ku ingini...

1) I want MONEY! Babes, gotta be frank, I am broke. My med bills are killing me softly, and I am already in the no-pay leave phase of MC. So pls hor, cash will be good, above $200 each is better!

2) I still want a bf! ( I wanted to say husband, bt sum1 has been telling me nt to get married recently!) Oklah.... actually I dun really want a bf, i just want a male fren that I can talk to whenver I feel like it! Hahahahahah! TTM man! (Shit, i sound like a bitch now)

3) Of coz, I do want a car. A small car pls! Like a cooper, a beetle, swift. ;p I certainly dun need one, bt I would love to have one. Shahreil, get me a BMW k! Thanks abg ipar!

4) I want a blackberry! Y? Coz I do not have a handphone. All this while I've been suing my father's hp and I want my own hp and I am eyeing on a blackberry!

Short list this year! But all the presents HAVE and MUST be diiringi dgn doa for me k! I wanna be happy, rich, successful, healthy and married to Hans Isaac! (this man, I'll marry!)

Ok ppl, go get my gifts now!

Cheers!
Shikin

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 10:59 PM

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Syawal 2009

Takbir bergema, menyambut Syawal
Ramadhan berakhir, melambaikan tangan
Sayu dihati makin terasa
Tatkala teringat orang yang tiada...

It's officially Syawal now... A day or a nite that used to be sooooo kecoh and well-anticipated for me has become sumting so... almost meaningless this year... I really hate growing up...

This year Raya has no meaning at all to me. None at all. Maybe for the fact that this year, I don't even feel Ramadhan's spirit. Now I know the true meaning of fasting and betapa ruginya orang yang tidak berpuasa - nikmat bulan Ramadhan and Syawal hilang macam tu jer...

In addition, keluarga kiter ditimpa bermcm2 musibah tahun ni yang membyebabkan kiter tkder mood utk beraya. And of course, reason no 1 is pemergian Pak Long... Masih susah untuk diproses yang Pak Long tkder... Semenjak dewasa, Raya tidak pernah lagi bererti "collection period" tetapi hari dimana aku bertemu dan berkumpul dgn keluarga besar yg tersayang... Tapi kita semua tidak menjangkakan yg tahun ini, salah satu yg disayangi tidak bersama kita... Tak tau kenapa hati ni jadi sayuuuuuuu sgt2 dgr takbir dan kepala otak ni asik teringat2 kan sgt pak long.... Mendengar imam yg tgh bertakbir kat depan block ni pun dh mcm dgr Pak Long bertakbir... (walaupun suaranyer tk sama lah sgt pun..) Mungkin kiter semua rindu kat dier, mungkin aku rindu kat dier.... Al-Fatihah Pak Long...

And sejak Along ni dah kawin, rumah ni rasa sunyi sgt... Bukanlah dier tu byk mulut pun masa tinggal kat sini... tp ntahlah, sbb dh slalu beramai agaknyer, hilang satu ekor ayam, terasa gak... Dahlah tahun ni berbuka pun mcm tkder org, JARANGGGGG sekali lebih dr 5 org, selalunyer 4 org jer kat rumah berbuka...

Haizzzz..

I am currently in my room, in my tidy room, while typing. I am also observing the room and thinking why do I feel like this year, this is my room padahal last year pun dh jadi bilik aku eh? Apa bezanya? Ntah lah, maybe I finally have sense of ownership kot? Ntah... Tapi bilik cantik2 pun, aku rasa sumting missing... missing sgt2... Bt then again, this year, semua pun aku rasa missing. Mcm kosong gitu... kalau artiste slalu kata, "no soul" inilah rasanya... Aku rasa masa tu dh nk kat sampai kot...

Oklah, enough of the low-spirited ramblings, raye-raye org nk hepi2 kan???

My Dear Gentle Readers,
Selamat Menyambut Syawal disamping orang-orang yang tersayang. Mintalah ampun dan maaf dari mereka dengan IKHLAS, kerana sesungguhnya kita takkan tau kalau kita akan dipersembahkan kesempatan itu lagi. Dan ingat, hari baik, bulan baik bukan hanya tertakluk pada bulan Ramadhan dan Syawal sajer, hari-hari lain pun sama jugak.

Kullu Amin Wa'antum Bil Khair!
Shikin Mohamad

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 8:12 PM